New Phase of Life - Of Breastfeeding

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh

Hye dears.. lama sungguh tak update entri kat sini.. hehe.. nak kata busy takdela busy mana.. just adapting to a new phase of life.. hehe.. Alhamdulillah, Cahaya Mata Suci Bersih a.k.a. Nur Aina Surfina dah masuk 3 bulan.. k, saya nak cerita perihal breastfeeding and berpantang, more for my record and reference of course.. ^-^ bear in mind that it's such a long story.. enjoy your reading yea.. ^-^

Of Breastfeeding

 

Alhamdulillah, I manage to breastfeed her until now.. such a success to me since we had to gave her breast milk together with formula milk (FM) during her first month of life.. such a heartbreaking moment.. but Alhamdulillah, setelah giat berusaha dan dengan izin Allah juga, saya berjaya stop giving FM to my baby.. thanks to mama, mak n SIL yg byk bagi support.. hubby? hoho, itu orang tak boleh sabar tengok anak dia lapar, terus nak sumbat FM.. we gave FM to baby Fina due to very low production during the first few days.. especially masa first 24 hours, memang tak nak keluar.. sangat sedih ok.. lagi2 bila baby Fina susah nak latch dan susu belum ada.. saya pun belum pandai.. lepas tu kejap2 dia pandang saya.. masa tu breastfeed mengiring.. belum larat nak duduk lagi.. so bila nampak pandangan dia yg konon-konon macam nak gtau maknye ni susu takde, tak sampai hati la maknye ni.. walhal dia tak nangis lapar pun.. in fact, sejam dua lepas lahir mama n ayah dah bagi air zam zam plus kurma for tahnik.. tapi, being a mother, I cant help seeing her eyes at that time.. padahal masa tu baby Fina belum nampak sangat pun kan.. poyo je mommy ni kan Fina kan? xpasal-pasal Fina kena minum FM.. huhu, maafkan mommy sayang.. and gtau hubby Fina tak minum lagi, hubby suh panggil nurse untuk feed FM.. T_T yes, I am deeply heartbroken and upset at that moment.. rasa macam nak belasah diri sendiri je sebab tak dapat breastfeed our newborn.. T_T

And bila balik rumah pun lepas 3rd day kot baru susu banyak.. tu pun since my n***** is flat, Fina couldnt latch properly.. sampai luka2 la jugak kan n***** mommy ni.. bila dah luka letak minyak gamat, takdela nak feed thru that side kan? jadila bengkak susu yg sakit sangat.. kena tuam dengan ais lepas tu tuam guna bantal panas pulak.. tu pun kena buat dua tiga round baru ok.. sampai mommy demam.. dan disebabkan mommy tak sihat, Fina kena minum FM.. yes, mommy did pumping, tapi still didnt cater Fina's need masa tu.. especially when she woke up every two hours at night.. I cant do much since I was sick at that time, so dengan sangat berat hati, kesedihan dan terlukanya saya terpaksa merelakan anak saya diberi FM tiap malam.. hanya waktu siang saya dapat breastfeed my Fina.. sangat sangat sangat sangat mengecewakan.. kadang susu yang saya pump terpaksa dibuang sebab terbiar lama dalam fridge.. tapi bila saya dah sihat, memang takde chance la utk FM yea.. memang pagi petang siang malam direct feed je.. lagi2 bila dah moved upstairs.. memang takde nak bawa stock FM and bottles naik atas.. masa tu saya belum berani feed Fina cara mengiring.. so memang asal nak feed je saya akan duduk.. dalam seminggu lebih nak start keja, kami balik kampung, so kat sana saya test terus feed Fina cara mengiring.. senang, xpayah bangun.. hehe

Then, dekat kampung memang tak buat stock langsung la kan.. selamba je.. until now, my EBM stock is pump utk esok n lusa je.. sehari saya akan pump lebih kurang 3 kali dekat ofis, tu pun kalau ada meeting pagi memang tak sempat nak pump.. saya pump dekat bilik ofis je, nak pump dekat surau takut lama sangat since I am using Medela Swing single pump je.. I had manual pump from Tommee Tippee Closer to Nature, tapi sebab malas n segan dengan bos, saya guna Swing je.. production Alhamdulillah, so far so good, enough for Fina's need.. no more FM since she's around a month.. Fina pun memang dah totally reject FM.. Alhamdulillah.. ^-^ her daddy tak puas hati, he wants her daughter to be more chubby, but FM is not only making our baby chubby, but unhealthy since it contains lots of formulas and sugar.. may cause diabetes and obesity.. saya nak anak chubby, sihat dan kuat, tak nak la anak chubby tapi tak sihat, lembik.. what a thought la kan.. huhu.. macam la mommy Fina dah takde susu langsung nak bagi Fina minum kan sayang kan? setakat ni cukup je untuk Fina, dan Fina adalah sangat bijak, she refuses EBM thru bottle sebab dia rasa direct feed lagi best, lagi sedap kot.. huhu.. adeh, kesian tok mama dia kena pujuk2.. ampun mama.. huhu.. semalam dari lepas subuh saya direct feed Fina, jam 3 lebih tu baru dia nak minum.. tu pun setakat 2 oz.. memang jam 5 je saya terus balik umah.. sampai umah solat Asar terus direct feed Fina.. mama dah tukar puting, tukar bottle pun Fina still refused.. she did not cry though.. minum 2 oz tu pun sebab dah lapa sangat.. risau, terus rasa nak tender sekarang, xpayah tunggu bonus.. hoho.. cerita kat hubby dia boleh kata salah cara pujuk kot.. hm.. *rolling eyes*

Owh, yea.. I took Shaklee Energizing Soy Protein (ESP) and Alfalfa Complex to increase milk production and to enrich my milk.. biar Fina cepat kenyang, sihat, comel, gebu.. hehe.. and now she's fairier than before I took ESP (I started ESP less than a month ago).. me myself pun memang terasa perubahan especially tang lutut and tapak kaki yang sakit2 dan tegang2 lepas bersalin tu, Alhamdulillah dah tak sakit.. ^-^ my skin is smoother, rasa sihat dan bertenaga je, Alhamdulillah.. rasa macam nak jadi member terus tapi kenala tunggu end of month kan.. 

But I had to stop alfalfa for a while since I am waiting for HCG beta blood test result.. sebabnya, lepas habis pantang kerap ada pinkish and brownish spotting.. macam seminggu tu ada dalam sehari dua kena.. mula2 jumpa doctor dia kata due to hormone, dia suh urut lagi utk keluarkan darah yg tinggal.. tapi saya tak urut pun.. hehe.. then last Saturday when we met a doctor for Fina's circumcision, I check sekali.. doctor scan, Alhamdulillah, rahim takde bengkak ke apa.. since ada spotting tu doctor tak syorkan buat UPT, she did a HCG Beta blood test.. hoho.. what if it's positive, hu, kesian Fina dapat adik umur tak sampai setahun.. plus, phobia during confinement pun belum hilang lagi.. huhu.. tapi xpela, nama pun rezeki kan.. Alhamdulillah.. ^-^ tapi kalau negative, risau kat lain pulak.. harapannya biarlah semua normal.. risau ni..        

Alamak, dah terlebih panjang ni.. nak Zuhur kejap, then kita sambung cerita pasal berpantang pulak yea.. daaaa... 

Wassalam